Man and him

He just looked at me, I am not sure why. I have tried my best to make him at ease, but he does not seems to be happy with my efforts. Though he has drink some milk, but yet he is sucking his hand, literally the whole hand. I tried, but I cant do it.

I am supposedly alone. Does his presence impact the phenomena of loneliness? He is not talking to me, though he is crying. Can I ignore him? Being my youngest baby boy, I can not. I will not. But does it mean that if you can ignore, you can achive the state of loneliness? Yes you can.

Being alone gives you the freedom to do what you want to do and can not do with others and in front of others.

And since I am not alone, so I have to really see why he is crying.......chao!

Feelings

Feelings, they are just like a unix variable, changing values. Sometimes you feel insecure, sometimes you feel happy, you feel incomplete, and sometimes you feel powerful.

Sometimes you feel that you are not doing much, and sometimes you feel that you are overbrudend.

Your mood swings with your feelings. Its very hard to keep things constant.

I just wish that we could handle things or I could handle thinsg positively, what ever happens, we emerge out with a smile and a positive note.

just like a script that always ends with a staus 'success'

Thinking way too hard

Lots going on now a days, something very important and something very lame. Something very unique and something really usual.



I am worried about my future and lots more. How I will manage my kids, what if they will more in number in coming days, the thought of this give me strong headach, and if they will remain two, how I will manage to get them do good and being positive for this world. Will they able to manage to follow the right track, will I be able to get food and clothes for them ..bla, bla.





There have been few bomb blasts lately. Things were bizare. Its not getting very normal for a bomb to explode and take few lives. I am not sure how excatly people manage it to get it done so easily but its alarming. The blast in Islamabad was totally illogical, I could not understand the motive and yet another blast in Kabul after some time, in front Indian embassy, gives me some meaningful bells in my head.



The nations top leader ship is not in country, its really funny that we do not have a place in our country where politicains can meet, for that they have to go out in another country, it is hilarious.



I was watching news, and some of the indian parties get seperated from congress government for some issue regarding nuclear deal. I amazingly noticed that one of the leaders was traveling in a "merc"

Back to start

Since my website is down for some reason, so I can not post any thing on it.....

So many things happening and I really want to say loud about them.

thanks to google they kept my blog for 4 years.....:)

cheers